Happy Thought # 31

I know it sounds bad but this kind of made me laugh.

Being a working mom has been kind of crazy trying to run errands and make sure everything is taken care of.  I enjoy being busy and being useful but it also makes me appreciate the time I spent at home doing nothing. lol 

Happy Thought #30

Self Explanatory ;-)

Weigh In

 

Yay!! I lost a little from the previous week!!

Although I have to admit I came home and kind of ate my anger and annoyance today.

Good thing I weigh myself in the morning.

Monkey bread and coke definitely is not a recipe for success.

I did good with my goals though.

No eating past 6pm

I cant remember what the others were. hahaha

Happy Thought # 29

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Every morning the sun has been hitting me just right and shining a bit through my window.  Instead of annoying me it has actually been making me smile a bit.  It always nice to get some sunshine in.

Sunday Stealing

Today we ripped off a blogger named  Kyogres from the blog Hero of the BlueFlames. It's long so we will do it in parts. It was stolen from Nerdish.But, it was probably stolen there as well. So, of course, that will be as far as we go. Tracing back our theft's thieves might take some time. Take the time to comment on other player's posts. It's a great way to make new friends! Link back to us at Sunday Stealing!


Sunday Stealing: The 99'er Meme: Part 1

Cheers to all of us thieves!

1) Put your iTunes on shuffle. Give me the first 6 songs that pop up.

      * Bad Seed Metallica

      * The God That Failed MEtallica

      * For Whom the Bell Tolls Metallica

      * Away in a Manger Brad Paisley

      * Cloud of Dust Brad Paisley

      * Wheel In The Sky Journey
2) If you could meet anyone on this earth, who would it be?

some bloggers that i follow

3) Grab the book nearest to you, turn to page 23, give me line 17.

"door opening, and I leaned my head inside. "Hello?" I called."

4) What do you think about most?

change

5) What does your latest text message from someone else say?

'lol yep'

6) Do you sleep with or without clothes on? 

both. i like to mix it up a little

7) What's your strangest talent?
i dont think any of my talents are strange
8) Women.... (finish the sentence); Men.... (finish the sentence)
Women are tigers; Men are lions

9) Ever had a poem or song written about you?

i dont know. i would like to think so.  i am pretty sure there are

10) When is the last time you played the air guitar?

the other week

11) Do you have any strange phobias?

phobias hmmmmmm i am not telling

12) Ever stuck a foreign object up your nose?

no

13) What's your religion?

Raised LDS

14) If you are outside, what are you most likely doing?

watching the kids play

15) Do you prefer to be behind the camera or in front of it?

behind

16) Simple but extremely complex. Favorite band?

i dont have a favorite.  really. i dont

17) What was the last lie you told?

i dont remember the lies unless i have too.  oh wait i was asked if i was ok and i lied

18) Do you believe in karma?

yes

19) What does your URL mean?

i want to have happy rosie cheeks

20) What is your greatest weakness; your greatest strength?

food, listening i love to listen to people most of the time

21) Who is your celebrity crush?

hmmmmm today cant think of anyone but the guys on ncis are nice to look at

22) Have you ever gone skinny dipping?

yes, very refresing

23) How do you vent your anger?

i dont i kind of lock myself in a room

24) Do you have a collection of anything?

lighthouses and card

25) Do you prefer talking on the phone or video chatting online?

video chatting is fun.  i always have been an online chatter.  so much fun

Thank you for playing this week on Sunday Stealing! Please leave a comment or link when you have posted. Stop back and visit other player’s posts. That is really what this is all about, making new friends! Have a great week. See you next Sunday!

Happy Thought #28

Boobies is having a give-away and it is not just one!! Go check them out and see what you can get!!

Be sure to look for my name on the giveaways!!

Give Always always make me happy!!

Happy Thought #27

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I have come to love trying Ben and Jerry's flavors of ice cream.  I love to just go stand in the freezer aisle to see what new flavors and what names there are.  They have some yummy ones and some I would never touch.  I just wish they weren't so expensive

Happy Thought #26

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I sewed a bag tonight and holy cow I was just ripping through it because I just wanted to finish it.  Sewing is time consuming but I sewed it and it turned out awesome.  A little uneven but overall awesome.  Hope to learn how to sew more

Happy Thought #25

A sure way to get this girl to smile is to put some yummy, colorful flowers in front of her.  I love flowers. 

Happy Thought #24

His touch!
Makes me shiver inside.
Excites my heart.
Makes me moan with delight.

His hands
Caressing my skin
Rubbing me thin
Making me blush with surprise.

Weighing In

Ok.  I am ready to get serious about taking my weight down.  I worked so hard to get it down just to have it go right back up in a blink of an eye.  It really is true what they say, "It takes only a week to put the weight on but a year to take it off."  I dont think it will take that long for me to take off mine.  At least I am crossing my fingers that it wont. 

Today I weighed in at 177.6lbs and I would really like to get down to 140 - 145lbs.  I believe that is a healthy weight for me and it wont make me stick skinny but it will make me healthy.  I have created some goal to help get close to this number and that is: Exercise a little each day, Dont eat past six, Drink lots of water, Get a smoothie in once a day. 

I can exercise a little or lot but as long as I get this body moving to let it know it needs to be active that is what counts.  I have always had great success when I stopped eating at six.  It gives the body time to digest and work off the days meal especially before bed time.  Which is another work out if you play your cards right.  Water and smoothies are good because they clean out the system in a sense.  You know you are getting rid of excess when you are using the potty.  I am just saying. 

Last but not least plenty of sleep which I can hear my bed calling me now.  Hope you all had a fabulous monday!!

Happy Thought #23

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Do any of you have that one piece of clothing that makes you feel super sexy no matter what?!!  I have it with these lace pink panties I got from Walmart of all places.  I have been feeling fat lately and for some reason when I put these on I felt sexy, gorgeous and ready to tackle the world.  It made me happy and silly throughout the day.  Underwear really does make a difference.  hahahaha  Happy Monday to everyone!! ;)

Contemplating

I was thinking about all the blogs I have started, thought about, and created and wondering, "Why the hell do I create all of these blogs?!"  Each of my blogs have a little part of me.  My sexual part, my angry part, my weightloss journey part, my need to be happy part.  Why cant I just have all of those parts written in one big blog?  Not that I am asking you but these are the thoughts that go through my head.  I have always hid parts of me and I felt good about it.  I enjoyed having the secret.  But then I started opening myself up more, struggling with the me that IS me and ended up being afraid of all those quirky crazy sides of me.

Are you still with me?  It is confusing I know and I am being a little more analytical then I need to be but it is a constant struggle.  I want to let people see who I really am but not everyone can handle that. I dont want to deal with their criticism or THEIR truth.  I guess that is reason enough why I dont talk much on social sites and I dont talk much really in person.  I have gotten tired of getting beat down.  It is sad really.  Crazy really.  Hope I can break free of it all.

Happy Thought #22

My kids were laughing randomly and they wouldnt stop. They like to sit and stare at each other and just start laughing. Sometimes it is funny. Sometimes it is annoying. But for the most part it makes me happy to hear them laugh.

Sunday Stealing

Today we ripped off a blogger named Tense Teacher of the blog Tense for a Reason. (Yes we know that we've ripped her off not so long ago as well. It's pretty amazing since she stopped posting in 2007. But that's where we live as a thief). Also, it's long so we'll do it in parts. She does not say where she got it from. But, it was probably stolen there as well. So, of course, that will be as far as we go. Tracing back our theft's thieves might take some time. Take the time to comment on other player's posts. It's a great way to make new friends! Link back to us at Sunday Stealing!

Sunday Stealing: The Never Ending Meme, Ends

Cheers to all of us thieves!

36. Have you watched American Horror Story?

no I am not big on scary movies

37. Baseball hat or toque?
baseball hat
38. Do you shampoo or soap up first in the shower?
shampoo
39. Wet the toothbrush or brush dry with the toothpaste?
i usually like to wet the toothbrush first
40. Pen or pencil?
mechanical pencil or pen,  i like the sharp tips
41. Have you ever gambled at a casino?
yes.  the mr and i won a trip to vegas so of course we had to hit the slots
42. Have you thrown up on a plane?
no
43. Have you thrown up in a car?
yes

44. Have you thrown up at work?
no
45. Do you scream on roller coasters?
yes and it drives the mr crazy.  i dont care they are scary and you are supposed to scream lol
46. How many shoes do you have?
a lot
47. Who was your first roommate?
i had five
48. What alcoholic beverage did you drink when you got drunk for the first time?
like actual drunkenness i would say adult chocolate milk, the other stuff got me buzzed
49. What was your first job?
receptionist
50. What was your first car?
buick skylark
51. When did you go to your first funeral?
when i was 2 :(
52. How old were you when you first moved away from your hometown?
18
53. Who was your first grade teacher?
mrs hansen i think
54. Where did you go on your first airplane ride?
iowa
55. When you snuck out of your house for the first time, who was it with?
i have never snuck out always just walked out
56. Who was your first best friend and are you still friends with them?
lyndsay yes we are still friends
57. Where did you live the first time you moved out of your parents’ house?
college town
58. Who is the first person you call when you have a bad day?
i dont call anybody really i kind of lock myself in my room or i random text people
59. Whose wedding were you in the first time you were a bridesmaid or a groomsmen?
my sister's
60. What is the first thing you do in the morning?
go to the bathroom
61. What was the first concert you attended?
george strait
62. First tattoo or piercing?
my ears, butterflies on my back
63. First celebrity crush?
Mark Paul Gossaler from saved by the bell

Happy Thought #21

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It shall be no secret that I am a huge fan of Victoria Secret's products.  Yes they can be a bit expensive but there product still last and makes a girl feel good.  I was wishing I had my Victoria Secret bra on today that is what made me think of this happy thought. My other bra kept poking me in the back and it was annoying me!!

Happy Thought # 20

Turning off the lights can provide lots of happy thoughts and happy memories. ;)

A Better Day

I am starting to wonder if life ever calms down.  If we ever find routine.  How those working moms really do it?!!  Today was a quieter day thank God .  Still trying to figure out how to have enough energy when I get home to dinner and such.  lol.  Luckily I have an amazing husband who kicks ass.  Not all the time but most of the time.  He truly is a big help. 

We started out a chore chart for the kiddos and so far so good.  It is such a habit for me to just do the dishes or do the vacuuming but I really need to let them do it so they can get in the habit and enjoy it somewhat. 

I took my sleeping pill last night, you know the one that makes me gain weight, because I cant really go without sleeping.  I have tried it these past weeks and it hasnt been working out so well.  I have tried the melatonin and it doesnt help.  Luckily I have a doctors visit in a couple weeks.  Yay!!

Happy Thought #19

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This fun little poster made me smile and made me think of a friend who said she had balls of steel. lol  Women are truly amazing as are men.  But women always seem to amaze me at what they can and can not handle.

Happy Thought #18

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This is my happy thought for yesterday.  It is my awesome sleep number bed!!  It is so comfortable and it is huge so I can lay on it and have friends lay on it with me while we veg out.  It is is super awesome and relaxes the body every time!

Rough Day

It was a bit of a rough day and it is hard to find something to be happy about.  Right now I am just hoping and wishing for a good nights sleep.  I guess that is what I can be happy about.  A bed to sleep in and forget about it all. 

Dentist, Sickness and Life

I had to wake up extra early to get the kids to the dentist today.  The drive is an hour and a half and I wanted to make sure we got there in time.  Thank goodness it is only very 6 months except for when they get cavities which a couple of mine did.  So in a month I will be making the trek again.

It probably wouldnt be as bad, but I took Nyquil last night because I am sick and waking up early didnt agree with my body.  I am hoping to get over this sickness somewhat so I can go back to work tomorrow. 

My job is amazing and I enjoy the opportunity to keep learning and being actively engaged.  So amazing!!

Happy Thought #17

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I am blessed to have an amazing family.  My mom and sister came up the other day to help me unpack all of my boxes, hang my pictures and even tell me what I can keep and throw away.  Rightfully so,  I had had some of this stuff since I got married which was over ten years ago.  My home now looks like a home and I am grateful for the love and help that went into it. 

Happy Thought #16

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When you possess light within, you see it externally.  ~Anaïs Nin

In the right light, at the right time, everything is extraordinary.  ~Aaron Rose

Joy requires one to be awake,
Adjusting the heart's ambience to bright.
Some prefer the dark, as is their right,
On grounds of agony, and to forsake
Not only bliss, but all that's blessed by light.
~Nicholas Gordon, poemsforfree.com

Lighthouse's have great symbolism for me and I love the beauty and that they get to be near the water.   Water is so fun!!  

Happy Thought #15

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I love it when people create exercise plans and I dont have to think twice about it.  I am going to be starting this one, again.  Every time I have started it has been a crazy time in my life and I am ready to put forth the effort to finish these exercise plans.  No more fatty for me!! Downtownntumblr also has other levels of this plan.  So excited to work my strength up.  I will be healthy!!

Sunday Stealing

Today we ripped off a blogger named Tense Teacher of the blog Tense for a Reason. (Yes we know that we've ripped her off not so long ago as well. It's pretty amazing since she stopped posting in 2007. But that's where we live as a thief). Also, it's long so we'll do it in parts. She does not say where she got it from. But, it was probably stolen there as well. So, of course, that will be as far as we go. Tracing back our theft's thieves might take some time. Take the time to comment on other player's posts. It's a great way to make new friends! Link back to us at Sunday Stealing!

Sunday Stealing: The Never Ending Meme, Part Two

Cheers to all of us thieves!

21. Did you go to your high school prom?

Surely did. Even gave my guy a first kiss that night.

22. Perfect time to wake up?

I would say 8am. Or any time after that

23. Perfect time to go to bed?

9 or 10. Really depends on how busy the day was

24. Do you use your queen right away in chess?

I don't play that often but you can't use it right away anyways until you move some pawns

25. Ever been in a car accident?

Minor. Nothing serious

26. Closer to mom or dad…or neither?

Dad is passed so I would say I am a mama's girl

27. What age is this exciting life over for you?

The age my body is in the ground sounds about right

28. What decade during the 20th century would you have chosen to be a teenager?

Maybe the fifties are eighties

29. Favorite shoes you have EVER owned?

I like my red leopard stripper shoes. They are different and fun

30. Do you have an article of clothing you have had since you were in high school?

I have a few dressed

31. Were you in track and field?

No but my man was

32. Were you ever in a school talent show?

Yes. I can belt a tune or two. I think I sang A Whole New World from Aladdin.

33. Have you ever written in a library book?

My name

34. Allergic to?

BS

35. Favorite fruit?

Apples, bananas

Thank you for playing this week on Sunday Stealing! Please leave a comment or link when you have posted. Stop back and visit other player's posts. That is really what this is all about, making new friends! Have a great week. See you next Sunday!

Happy Thought #14

I love Hugs!!

Especially when they are with people I love.

Nothing ends a day better by getting a huge overwhelming hug.

Happy Thought #13

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I love books and the adventures and escape they provide.

Happy Thought #12

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I simply adore trees.  All of them!!  I find peace when I can stare at a tree and see the changes in them  It is almost like the Phenomenon movie when John Travolta was looking out the window staring at the trees and swaying.  I feel myself sway.  Anywho just a little about me.  I love trees.

Lookin Up

Well I applied for a job with this new move and am happy to say that I got it.  Woo-hoo!  I really had no doubts but when they said 15 applied I was a little worried.  today being my first day at worked it was a bit overwhelming on the brain but I am sure with time it will all come together.  I am so excited to have his opportunity and have this chance to have purpose again.  besides what I am supposed to have purpose about of course.  Being a mother a wife blah blah blah. 

I have made some more recipes from pinterest and they were oh so heavenly!!  I really loved them and so did the family.  It was the Sugar Cookie Bars and the French Dip Crescent Rolls.  Pinterest might just be the best invention.  I am such a visual girl and seeing the pictures makes recipes, blogs, crafts so much more wantable and doable.

I met my new therapist today and it was a little awkward, not gonna lie.  I pretty much told him my history and what got me to this point.  I didnt really have much to say after this.  He kind of just looked at me probably assessing what I just said.  I was sure to tell him if he didnt take the lead I would not have much to say.  So we discussed structure and what we wanted to accomplish.  Definitely made me feel better when he spoke and talked of having a plan.  This could be a positive experience. 

Well I am tired and tomorrow calls for an all day work experience so sweet dreams to all you peeps.  Peace out!

Happy Thought #11

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When I first saw this picture I was like WOW.  Now when I see it I am like WOW.  Ok I really dont talk like that but seriously how many of us have stretch marks?!!  I know I do and I am very proud of what they accomplished.  This picture just brought whole new meaning to them and now when anyone asks I am going to say I am a freakin' tiger.  Boo-yah!!

Happy Thought #10

This has kind of been my motto for the last couple months as I try find out where I am supposed to be in life. Whether it be a job, helping out more, going to a church, and anything else on my path. It has taken a few hard knocks and I still don't have this patience and ease mastered but in any given situation I repeat these words and know I will be taken care of.

Happy Thought #9

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How could you not be happy about being a fucking bad ass?!!  Bring it on!!  That's what I say.  I love these cards they are hilarious.

Happy Thought #8

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I sooo enjoy wasting time!!

Sunday Stealing

The Never Ending Meme, Part One

Today we ripped off a blogger named Tense Teacher of the blog Tense for a Reason. (Yes we know that we've ripped her off not so long ago as well. It's pretty amazing since she stopped posting in 2007. But that's where we live as a thief). Also, it's long so we'll do it in parts. She does not say where she got it from. But, it was probably stolen there as well. So, of course, that will be as far as we go. Tracing back our theft's thieves might take some time. Take the time to comment on other player's posts. It's a great way to make new friends! Link back to us at Sunday Stealing!

Sunday Stealing: The Never Ending Meme, Part One

Cheers to all of us thieves!

1. Song that always makes you sad?

I try not to listen to sad songs
2. Last thing you bought?

ice cream
3. Last person you argued with?

kids
4. Do you put butter before putting the peanut butter on?

no I am not much of a butter person
5. One of your stuffed animals’ names as a kid?
I didnt name my animals
6. Did you ever at one time own a Barenaked Ladies CD?
No
7. Favorite day of the week?
Monday
8. Favorite sundae topping?
sunflower seeds and chocolate
9. Did you take piano lessons?
no but my kids are
10. Most frequent song played?
Leona Lewis has been a favorite
11. T.V. show you secretly enjoy?
Revenge.  It is so twisted and dark but I cant get enough of it
12. Would you rather play basketball or hockey?
hockey.  I think I might be better with a stick rather than dribbling
13. Date someone older or younger?
Older.  For some reason I always drift to the older crowd
14. One place you could travel right now?
Europe.  Seeing beautiful pics of it on Pinterest makes it so appealing
15. Do you use umbrellas?
No, I love to get wet
16. Do you know all the words to the Canadian national anthem?
No I am not Canadian
17. Favorite cheese?
provolone
18. The Smith’s or The Cure?
Cure
19. Do you prefer blondes or brunettes?
Both
20. Best job you ever had?
Receptionist
Thank you for playing this week on Sunday Stealing! Please leave a comment or link when you have posted. Stop back and visit other player’s posts. That is really what this is all about, making new friends! Have a great week. See you next Sunday!

A Deeper Look

I have been thinking about how I wanted to talk about my troubles without sounding crazy.  The whole experience still shocks me and I am complete silence about it all.  Until Now.  . . . .

Last year was kind of a trying time for my family and I.  I have suffered from post partum depression ever since my oldest was born.  With each additional kid it kind of got worse.  I decided it was time to seek help and get this problem taken care of.  I deserved it and my family deserved it.  I saw a doctor so they could help me with medication and I saw a counselor so I could talk about whatever is eating me internally.  I was not going to give up on the process, this time. 

I am very sensitive to medication so during this time my depression and symptoms tended to get worse.  The medication was not helping.  By my third visit with the counselor she decided to hospitalize me.  I guess thought of harm weren't the  normal thing to have even though I never acted on it.  Overall it was for the safety of the kids and me to get a quicker solution.

I was in denial and trying to reason with the counselor, I promised to be better.  I didnt know how this was going to work out.  Who was going to take care of my kids, my family, my life?  It was all out of my hands and to tell you the truth it kind of had to be.  I would never make these choices on my own in fear of being a burden to others. 

I stayed in the hospital for a week and a half and was monitored on different medications trying to find the best one for me.  I wasn't sleeping well and like I said before I have depression.  The sleeping pills worked wonders except for they made me eat everything in sight.  (Some of the change I need. I gained over 20lbs being on those.)  I left the hospital feeling scared and weary of what was to come.  I was scared to come back home, scared to see my family, just plain scared. 

While in the hospital my husband made the choice to move closer to work and provide a better atmosphere.  It was overall a very good choice for our family.  So we had that going on to where we were moving Christmas Eve and changing our whole future. 

Change is good and I am grateful for this change.  I just need to adjust myself and my life to make depression better and our family life better which is always a work in progress.

So that is a little about me.

Happy Thought #7

 

The wii has provided lots of fun times especially when we play together as a family!! It is a positive experience for all.

Happy Thought #6

I know there is so much to change about myself. But need to be happy today.

Pinterest Dinner: Buffalo Chicken Grilled Cheese

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 Ok, so my sandwich doesn't look as pretty as the Closet Cookers but I would like to think they still taste the same.  I put the blue cheese on the husbands sandwich and he informed me that it was a little much.  Note to self: use blue cheese sparingly.  I put ranch on mine because I am not a blue cheese fan and I loved it.  I could have probably put a little more hot sauce so that it could have been juicer but overall I would say that this experience was a success.  

Thank you Pinterest and thank you bloggers for creating yummy treats!! 

Happy Thought #5

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Happy Thought #4

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Cookies and milk!! How could this not make you happy?!!  If you eat too many your stomach might not like it but other than that this is a very happy thought for me.  But dont forget the milk!!